Finding Beauty in the Wild

I love New Year's Eve. I love Mondays. No really I do. It's an opportunity to hit the reset button. In all reality you can push that reset button any day of the week but you know how a lot of people say "starting on the 1st I'm going to" and "fresh start on Monday." We want change. We want to be better. I've heard this several times. Even in my own head! And then I have heard the excuses that follow not living up to the resolutions. I believe it's people's intention to say their goals out loud so that maybe they will actually achieve them. Maybe if I say it out loud it will somehow hold me accountable. I think we need accountability. But not everyone really wants it. There's nothing wrong with goal setting. Not in the least. But when we begin to compare ourselves to others and fail we wear a huge heavy ugly guilt suit. I'm tired of wearing that ugly suit. It doesn't look good. It doesn't feel good. It's not even ...

A year ago I couldn't be honest about this area of my life. Not with myself, not with anyone. I will start by saying this week I'm celebrating my day. Happy Birthday to me, 3-9-12. Obviously, I am not turning one, but in a way I am. A year ago today I finally, truly, wholeheartedly, with everything that I am gave my life to the Lord. And to some of you reading this may think, "what?" Well let me tell you my story. I was raised in church, in a Christian home. We were a family involved in the church. We were sometimes the first people there, because my dad turned on the lights at the church. I would even call it our second home. In this church, I received my prayer language, I was prayed over countless times, I was prophesied over, I prayed with people. Went to church at least twice a week. Read my bible, sang in the choir, summer camps, etc. And as I grew up, the next two churches I belonged to, same thing, involved. But something was missing. I couldn't ...