Just a minute.

There was a time when I would pray for more than a hour, read several pages of my Bible in a day. I went to prayer meetings once a week, where praise and worship music was softly playing and the sweet scent of anointing oil was in the air. Oh how I miss it. But what do I fill all my 24 hours with now? With 3 littles, and a house to "run" there's a lot to do! Running around, cleaning, changing pull-ups that should be dry, :) feeding everyone, including myself, scheduling, volunteering, etc. So by the the kiddos get in bed, (for the last time) I am for lack of a better word, spent. Then I look at the aftermath of dinner, and bath time and I feel like I can't stop. Then I turn on the TV and waste some time....really?! Does anyone hear HIM like I do? That internal tug to pick up that pretty purple book (mine's purple...) or to just still my brain for a few minutes...to not just sleep but rest in HIM.

My Husband was talking about a men's meeting he went to last week and I cannot stop thinking about the picture the speaker painted. Imagine your life has the Hoover Dam, and the water is the Lord's Blessing for your life. There is a tiny crack in the wall of the dam, so the water is just trickling out, and your finger is plugging up the crack. If you would remove your finger, (your fear, your will, your whatever) if you would just let that wall burst, then His Blessing would rush over your life. WOW! Is that not an amazing sight?! Am I holding back the blessing that my Abba has for me by not listening to those little tugs? Am I going to let fear, rob me of my blessing? Not anymore. Sure there are going to be days were I cannot spend an hour face down in prayer (without falling asleep) but I will cast my cares on Him and I will converse with Him throughout the day, and listen. I may not be able to read an entire chapter, but when I hear a whisper of a certain verse, I will at least write it down and take a peek, and meditate on that verse, and hide it in my heart.

There are so many changes going on, huge blessings, left and right. Things that the glory can only be given to God. It's amazing! I'm so excited to see His Blessing continue in our lives. Now to just remove that finger....

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